The Ride Of My Life

There are days where I feel strong
Not the regular physical/emotional strength
I am talking about the kind of strength that transcends this very life

Where death is the driver and I am the ecstatic passenger on the ride of our lives

Where fear is a friend who always lends a helping hand

Where I could stop breathing and still stay alive, forever

Where nothing exists except this raw and insane courage

Where light and dark seduce one another into perfection of being

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I welcome these unexpected days with an open soul, or with no soul at all

I am beyond human, beyond life, beyond everything

As I fly straight into space and come back for more!


Secretly Whispering Exclamations

2oo9, a tough year in my life, I secretly whispered these affirmations day and night. I was affirming for my life. My energy body was taking me on a roller coaster of panic and fears, I was afraid back then, but now I know, it was in order to break through.  

I am reading this list today, from a different Universe, it seems like no big deal, sure I feel all those things now, yeah I could use a bit more of this and that, but back then it was only a dream. Whenever I write down an affirmation, I feel I am making a pact with my soul, to trust the journey towards it. For some it might seem like wishful thinking, but I can tell you this, for me, it was a dream, and that dream came true.

I Am Thankful,
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Out of the Shadow, Out of the Light

I‘ve always heard the saying: “Out of the shadow & into the light.” That just doesn’t sound right. Not if I look at it through the “as above, so below” lens. I mean, if I am out of the shadow then I am also clearly out of the light, right?

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So, where does this new spin take me? It immediately elevates me to the next layer of awareness in regards to my perception of dark and light. I begin to Emerge not only from the shadow, but also from the light. Suddenly being “Out” of something, or somewhere, doesn’t mean leaving, but becoming visible instead. I am being set free.

‘I’ feel
‘I’ experience

Out of the Shadow and Out of the Light


I, Emerge!

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Lost Footage Emerges: Entering Dream Worlds…

Let me set the stage. It’s around 2010, I am in California, clarOscura has recently entered my reality, shift hit the fan in a big way and I bought a flip camera as a video experiment.

What happened next? I couldn’t stop talking about dreams and multidimensional experiences in front of the camera. I even did a little word collage as an intro or about clip of the clarOscura project/concept. Shortly after, my hard drives, laptop and cameras got stolen. Yet somehow, by the grace of Goddess, I found these backed up in a random folder and so here she is, clarOscura the early days:

& a whimsical word collage

Nothing’s ever really lost.

Through Dark & Light,

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