There are days where I feel strong
Not the regular physical/emotional strength
I am talking about the kind of strength that transcends this very life
Where death is the driver and I am the ecstatic passenger on the ride of our lives
Where fear is a friend who always lends a helping hand
Where I could stop breathing and still stay alive, forever
Where nothing exists except this raw and insane courage
Where light and dark seduce one another into perfection of being
I welcome these unexpected days with an open soul, or with no soul at all
I am beyond human, beyond life, beyond everything
As I fly straight into space and come back for more!
2oo9, a tough year in my life, I secretly whispered these affirmations day and night. I was affirming for my life. My energy body was taking me on a roller coaster of panic and fears, I was afraid back then, but now I know, it was in order to break through.
I am reading this list today, from a different Universe, it seems like no big deal, sure I feel all those things now, yeah I could use a bit more of this and that, but back then it was only a dream. Whenever I write down an affirmation, I feel I am making a pact with my soul, to trust the journey towards it. For some it might seem like wishful thinking, but I can tell you this, for me, it was a dream, and that dream came true.
I Am Thankful,
Yes, it’s my voice. For the purpose of detaching from my own persona and listening to my own thoughts, I have changed the pitch of the recording.
Through Light & Dark,
I‘ve always heard the saying: “Out of the shadow & into the light.” That just doesn’t sound right. Not if I look at it through the “as above, so below” lens. I mean, if I am out of the shadow then I am also clearly out of the light, right?
So, where does this new spin take me? It immediately elevates me to the next layer of awareness in regards to my perception of dark and light. I begin to Emerge not only from the shadow, but also from the light. Suddenly being “Out” of something, or somewhere, doesn’t mean leaving, but becoming visible instead. I am being set free.
Out of the Shadow and Out of the Light
Let me set the stage. It’s around 2010, I am in California, clarOscura has recently entered my reality, shift hit the fan in a big way and I bought a flip camera as a video experiment.
What happened next? I couldn’t stop talking about dreams and multidimensional experiences in front of the camera. I even did a little word collage as an intro or about clip of the clarOscura project/concept. Shortly after, my hard drives, laptop and cameras got stolen. Yet somehow, by the grace of Goddess, I found these backed up in a random folder and so here she is, clarOscura the early days:
& a whimsical word collage
Nothing’s ever really lost.
Through Dark & Light,